switch it change it a rearrange it.

today was a 4 o'clock morning work day. And after I got off work, I was supposed to take a nap. But instead, I rearranged my house. And cleaned and rearranged my room. It is amazing to see the effects something has like that on one's pshyche. But now, I am officially exhausted. But, I'm meeting up with my good friend Jim Smelser tonight for a drink.
I also hung some of my artwork up in my room. It really inspires me to create more. I guess the most fasinating thing I am discovering lately is God the Creator. and that my deepest pathway is that...creation. And that it's not just nature. It's not just art. It's everything he touched and touches. The way he created our minds and where animals go to die, and if they bury one another. And the way the body digests things. And the process it takes to see, smell, feel. The distance that has to remain between certain objects. The topic of science which before this past month, has NEVER really interested me at all. I found nothing wonderous in it, because it was all about fact and I don't know a better word to use for it than science. BUT discovery, creation, how things work and move and grow and what not. God the creator who is "in" us. The creator inside of me that knit the WHOLE Kristen package together. It all just amazes me. She amazes me. And I can give credit where credit is due when I am undone over a man who can inspire me. Or when I see his art and cry. Or when we talk of paint and graphing things and poetry and I can give credit to God and understand that although, yes I am so amazingly attracted to this man, I am so much more attracted to the creator in you. The one inspiring me is God. The God in Him, crying out to heal and love him.
Oh, and to see God flourish in my friends. The ones who are creators. The ones who paint and draw and write and create all different types of images on the computer, and who sing and dance and play the guitar. My friends, my friends... God shines through you and the world is inspired. Through your pictures and letters and meditations and bar drinks, and laughter and clothing and food and beer.
Thank you for inspiration O original friend. Thank you for imaging us to be like you, and to have your spirit dwell in us and out of us comes more creation.