Half a world away

Today is a day where I feel a million miles away from everyone that means anything to me. Part of it is that Kate and the boys left today to go back home. Part of it is that my roommates have both been gone for the last week and I've been living alone. Part of it comes from the fact that most of my dearest and closest friends live not here in Chicago, but in twelve different states at least 4 hours away from me. Now, this does not mean those here are not availiable, I just can't seem to connect with any of them these days. Work is the reason for this conundrum.
My circumstances are also this way because the fact is that it snowed yesterday!! And more than anything, I want a fun friend to go play in it with me. No fun friends can go though. They work during the day :0( OR they are doing work on their days off. Poop poo on you! I'm acting like I'm 12 again and have a snow day. LOL. I would totally go play in it alone and make my mom a snowman to come home to, but I have no winter gloves. SHUCKS! So, basically I'm just complaining.
One another note but one that hits close to the topic, I really adore my sister. Most people don't even have a clue that I look up to her as much as I do. Back in the day, some of my friends didn't even know I had a sister. I think it's because I admire her so much that I don't talk about her. I want to keep her to myself kinda. HUH? Yeah, it's a little strange, but true. She's kind of my secret friend. She's the one that knows me so well and has the same memories. She's incredibly smart and wise. She's a mom and our (t, Josh and I's) second mom. Yeasterdy, we spent the day together. Michael, Nicholas, Kate and I went out. We went to the bank and started Nicky a saving's account for his future. It was my 1st birthday present to him. It's really important to me to be a good aunt and helping him learn the value of money is maybe one way. I hope he learns better than I did. That's what the bank account is about: an investment in his life. After the bank, we went to McDonald's Play Land. Oh it was great! Seriously...so much fun to play with them and talk with Kate. I really am considering going to school closer to her. If I don't go to Colorado, then I want to go move close to Kate and Mike and their boys. I value family so much and I want to be favorite Aunt Kiki. The one that takes them on adventures and can babysit for free and KNOWS them. I guess that's what's plauging my soul today. The deep deep desire to KNOW and BE KNOWN. To sit with someone and just be and laugh and cry and be. Like my sis and I did yesterday!
As I drove home from work this morning, this idea overwhelmed my head. I wanted to deeply connect with someone. I wanted to have someone to say wonderful things to. And to have someone say wonderful things back. Or hard things. Or anything for that matter. This "E" (extrovert) has been without a whole lot of people lately and I think I'm beginning to run on "E!"(empty) The scary part is that there seems to be no cure in sight. I mean...work doesn't really fill my "E" tank. And even though I will be going to see a wonderful show tomorrow night with ma and Bonnie, I'm not sure that will fill it either. Tomorrow I have the whole day off...and I need to fill it with people. maybe I'll go make plans right now...so that I can be filled, cause tears are falling right now and that's no good. So, although I HATE being needy and really think it's funny that I'm putting this on here, PLEASE drop me a note if you love me and if you are around me anytime soon, can we hang? Thanks...Love you all...and miss you like crazy!!!